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I've probably lost my mind. Keep posting on here as if God is reading this. Wouldn't matter if he was. I seem to be cursed and damaged.

I'm looking for comfort after having a failed egg retrieval. I keep hearing I'm healthy, good candidate, but I'm still without a successful pregnancy. I'm single by choice and a Christian. At 33 I've been told I have time, but I'm 30k in the hole and losing my faith. I've never asked for anything from anyone. I've completed post-graduate studies, support myself and tried to do what God would be proud of, yet I have faced more heartache, disappointment, setbacks and losses.

Have a job after being unemployed fur two years after being laid off and the job is pure Hell. I'm not respected, I'm the fall guy for all their problems. I've been told my position offers no growth and no pay increases. They hired me as an IT admin, but I get paid at a lower pay grade than the least experienced IT assistant. With all my education and experience I'm skill stuck in a dead-end job and can't get another job.

Keep turning the other cheek but I'm dizzy. I'm broken. I'm bitter. I don't want to marry a man. Don't want to be around anyone with children. Don't qualify as a single female to adopt because I'm single, but my bitterness won't allow me to love anyone else's child. I don't know what I've done to deserve this. Looking for comfort, but I'm only filled with anger, pain and a desire to die. Each disappointment brings another wave of anger and disconnection.

I'm so tried and lost. I pray for understanding, but I have lost my faith. Last three years have been pure Hell and I've always put on a fresh face. I'm not fine. I hate this life I have. I don't seem to have a purpose. To have children of my own flesh is and has been my motivating goal next to pleasing God. I don't seem to be able to please him, so I'm praying for mercy and a swift death.



by Anonymous

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Psalms 9:9-10 KJV

The Lord also will be a refuge for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble. And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, Lord , hast not forsaken them that seek thee.

Anonymous | on Nov 03, 2013

I will pray for you to our Blessed Mother, Mary. For she knows what it is like to to be a woman broken, to be a Mother to our Lord and to watch her Son be nailed to a cross for our sins and for Him to be lost to her. She will understand your diffculties and hopefully bring you Hope.

Anonymous | on Nov 03, 2013

Prayers sent. In the meantime get a dog. Unconditional love. :)

Rain | on Nov 03, 2013

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