I feel so completly and utterly abandoned by all my Christian friends. At a time in my life where I needed them the most they abandoned me. I'm so weak I keep falling into sin. I want to trust God but when it comes down to it I don't. I'm so sick of waiting for God to answer my prayers I've been praying over this same situATion for 7 years and nothing has changed. I started out on this journey full of faith then the storms, the persecutions came and no answers from God and then I fell into sin not trusting God was really going to do what he said he was. I'm now on a downward spiral of falling into sin daily because I feel I'm so deep into this bad situation God will never pull me out. I'm really going through depression. I'm so so incredibly lonely. I thought I would be married by now but no godly men in sight. :-(. Only non Christians who want sex. Sex before marriage and to live together. :-(. I'm sooo discouraged right now. My church has kicked me out due to them thinking I was skitsoprenic too. Which is not true. :-(. I'm sooo sooo sooo badly suffering I'm on the verge of just moving in with a nonchristian guy! I knew this was gonna happen to it's so unfair!!!!!!!!'. Cry cry cry cry.
Don't be discouraged. Sometimes we have to be still to hear the whisper of the Father. When I am down I read Psalms 37 and 91. Please stay encouraged and follow your first mind. It is usually right. God loves you and so do I.