Nov 8,09: 12:55 pm
Lord im sittin here in church unable to concentrate. I feel like ima do something i should nt do. I wanna hate her because she gets to have something i dont. A CHILD. I wanna hate him for makin me do this. But i cant still. She hasnt done anythin to me but everytime i c her and her round stomach i start to cry and picture horrible things in my head. Lord i pray that u rake that spirit away from me. The spirit of jealousy, allow me to see her as she is. Allow me to deal with this because i still cant find a way to cope with this hurt.