Lord, Jesus i have pushed you so far from me, and i am afraid of not being able to get you back, i have been knowningly sinful and i know having sex before marriage is wrong, Lord i dont wanna go back to my old ways or face this new wordly way if it is wrong, i wanna be how you want me to be,i wanna be strong, and not take disrespect in any form, by my family my brothers my sisters and men!, yet i also dont wanna be so senstive, Jesus i need you back God help me lord not to fall into love with the world, or its ways...i dont know what to do, i believe everybad thing people say about me show me how special and good i really am, that i am made and am beautiful, i would like to continue dating and haivng sex, yet i know thats wrong i am ready to change yet i am not! Jesus i want to believe you help me to believe in you with all ,ma heart and soul and love you i wanna go to heaven i dont wanna die and not be there Jesus and than thats it, God i am truly scared! Help me to believe Jesus in you and your saving power! And that i am saved by you, and help me Lord with money and my house, help me Holy spirit!