Prayer Request

GOD, why does this hurt so much?! Why can't I continue to get better?! Why do I relapse into these feelings of despair and hoplessness?! Why did she do this to me?! Why didn't I see it coming?! Why couldn't I be wiser and see that she had problems that would ultimatley hurt me?! Why did I hurt her?! Why didn't I end that stupid text messaging?! Why didn't I tell her and show her?! Cause I'm a sinner that does sinful things. Cause I didn't want to risk losing her. And my sin ended it anyway. Well, Im not positive on that and I feel like blaming myself for some reason? Am I doing it to make myself feel worse and it would bring some order to the confusion? Inside I know what's going on. She's confused on her feelings cause she's interested in someone else. But good to know that now, right? What if we had married and then all this happened?! Would I have had to leave then?! This whole situation hurts and it confuses me! I wish she would have said that she just wants to move on. Sorry Manuel but i don't want to be with you. I don't want to be accountable to anyone. I want to do what I want and not have to answer to anybody. I should just see it like that! I shouldn't need to hear that from her. Her actions show it. I've been in relationships before I can read the actions louder than the words. She may have said all this stuff but she dosent love me. She wants to see where the relationship with this guy is gonna go. She would rather have him in her life than me. And why should I be hung up on that?! I will be a blessing to my wife one day and she's going to be so happy. We re goingto be so happy. I don't want to be with someone who puts me on the back burner! I want someone who will love the LORD and want to grow in our knowledge together about him. And our love for him. GOD, hear my thoughts and calm my heart and emotions and bring peace upon me. In JESUS name I pray. Amen.

by Anonymous

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I understand wea ur coming frm & I too want that. Its krazy bc I did the same thing to my ex & nw I feel kinda bad bc this person is dying on me.

GOD iS WONDERFUL.! :D iLY.! | on Apr 07, 2010

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