Restored, I BEG of you. Do not do the thing that you are considering doing. If you are Saved, you are a Temple of the Holy Spirit. He is IN you. By ending your time prematurely, you sin a Multitude of sins you cannot repent from... You commit murder, you defile a Temple of God (you ARE His Vessel), & you declare your faith as non-existent. You would also keep God from completeing His work within you, as you leaving this life prematurely is not in His plan. You also remove your own personal testimony... A testimony which God would want you to share with others, in order to share the Mercy & Grace HE has shown YOU. Please... Consider the many reasons you must turn to Jesus & let Him sooth & heal your ailing heart. I have been where you are. Jesus Gave His Precious Life, so You could have peace & joy!!... so we could ALL have Eternal Life by HIS Side. Don't throw away hope. I'm showing you love, right now!! I Love You. WE are KIN in Christ Jesus. You are NOT a curse!! Speak LIFE over your circumstances... speak God's WORD over your pain!! He WILL Bless you & ease your sorrow... Precious One, PLEASE try!!! Do it for me, if not for yourself!!!

Restored...I prayed for you hard.. for you to accept Jesus Christ as your Savior and for you to run to him always especially when you feel this emptiness and unpeace within yourself. I do not want to sound repeatative but I agree 100% with prayingforvictory. What I can say is that when I was lost and confused I too was thinking thoughts like you..I felt exactly what you just posted..crying in my bathroom floor with a knife thinking over how I was going to do this..while I had a crying newborn in his room I felt alone or so I thought. We pray for strength and so we then have obstacles come our way to help us gain that strength that we so much pray for. We can not run away from this Restored.. we must face whatever it is you need to face with confidence in Gods word and faith my love. I beg of you not to do it to yourself first off as well as others. You should never change who you are for anyone God made you and you need the guidence to be closer to Him in your journey these people should not judge you nor do they have the privilage to tear you down. There's always a strong will inside of us to better yourself and prove your doubters wrong and prove God right. I love you for opening yourself and allowing us to comment on your life without knowing you but I will follow you my friend and I hope and pray you take these words.

You say that people do not want you or need you. However it is not Mans wants but rather Gods will that must be done. Generally in this society non believers and backsliders tend to be uncomfortable around true believers and usually show that discontentment in mean ways. Therefore I pray for them that they be saved and accept Gods plan in their life. I pray that your lift your head up high with pride that ur first thought is to pray to God. With him All things are possible. I don't know ur circumstances however it sounds like you should seperate from those you feel so negative around. The devil can Not win you... just pray for them and remember to always act in Gods will so you can be a witness to all men for GOD. In Jesus name

I know exactly how you feel. I pray, every day, for my death. I ruined my life. I awake every day and I'm mad. I don't want to be here. I prayed for forgiveness, redemption etc... I got nothing. Here I am. Still here. I started praying for others. Not me. I don't know what that will bring, but out of the darkness, I'm still trying, just trying. Good luck, ill pray for you too. :)

My heart aches for you and others who are in the depths of dispair. Life on this earth isn't easy. We all must face many trials and tribulations. God LOVES you. Jesus said be of good cheer. That may sound impossible, but we are so blessed that we have salvation and a purpose. God wants only good things for you. The enemy of your soul is telling you it would be better if you were dead. This is a LIE. Please do not fall for the enemy's lies. Let God take control. Give EVERYTHING to Him. He WILL give you the peace and comfort you are needing. You must ask Him for it. You are very important. He wants a close relationship with you. Suicide is NEVER the answer. Please, ask God to send you people to help you get through this. You can do this. You are absolutely worth it. I promise this pain is only temporary. It WILL pass. Hang on. May God bless you always. Pray without ceasing. NEVER give up.

Restored... Are u noticing the compassion & love you are receiving from fellow Children of God? People are reaching out to you, Deeply moved w/ care & concern for a fellow sibling in Christ Jesus... Take heart & SEE. Love is surrounding you. God IS responding. His voice is evident in each voice Calling out into your darkness... Hands are reaching out to pull you into the Arms of the Almighty. You referred to yourself as a curse... A disease. Diseases are garbage which were introduced into this world by man's original sin. You were created in the image of God. God does NOT make junk. Please see. Jesus Gave His Life so that all who believe on Him will have Salvation!! You are not your own, you were bought at a very steep price... you belong to Jesus. You were fearfully & wonderfully made. You are the Apple of your Father's Eye. Watch & Pray without ceasing. Be at Peace.

Encouragement

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the Peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Philippians 4:6-7

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He Shall direct your paths. - Proverbs 3:5-6

Don't be afraid, for I Am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I Am your God. I Will Strengthen you and Help you. I Will Hold you up with My Victorious Right Hand. - Isaiah 41:10

Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you? - 1Corinthians 3:16

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11

We live by faith, not by sight. - 2Corinthians 5:7

The LORD heals the brokenhearted And binds up their wounds. - Psalm 147:3

But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. - Isaiah 40:31

Restored, speak these verses aloud... Say them until you memorize them & they are written on the tablet of your heart. They are life. God's Word Lives & Breathes. His Word is never idle & does not come back void. Speaking God's Words instead of our own brings His Transforming Energy into our very being, healing & restoring peace & joy into the hearts of the believer. How do we know this is true? Scripture tells us so. God watches after His Word to Perform it. He Responds to His Word. Call out to Him with His Word... Plead for peace using His Word... Praise Him by His Own Word!! I assure you w/ an iron-clad guarantee... it works. This is step one in victorious prayer. The Word of the Lord Bears Good Fruit, the words of man are defunct & fleeting... They serve no lasting purpose. I am praying for you & with you. God Bless YOU, Restored.

The LORD is my shepard
I shall not want
He maketh me lie down in green pastures; he leadeth me beside still waters
He restoreth my soul he leadeth me in the path of rightousness for his names sake
Yeah though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will no longer fear evil for thou art with me ; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies; thou anointest my head with oil my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy will follow you all the many days of your life and you will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
He is with you and will care for you. Just pull all your strength and allow him to guide you.