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I'm really messed up. I'm in love with my best friend. We are so good with each other. It's like when we are together it's magical. The most beautiful thing ever. When we dance the heavens seem to bow and the stars light up the sky. And right now he is on a date with another girl. He knows how I feel. He says he loves me and always will. I don't understand. I've waited for two years now. How much longer must I endure the pain of seeing him chase other women. How can this be. The heavens seem to open when we are together. It's so clear we are made for each other. Why doesn't he see that? I've put up with so much and would give my very life for him. No one understands me. Everyone tells me to move on but I can't. He's my best friend and the one I love. Please just take me home because if I can't be with him I have no purpose. I don't want to be here. Without him I am better off dead. Nobody understands me. Nobody knows how I feel. I don't want to go on anymore. I don't want to live. All my dreams and all my hopes.... It's all I want. I'm trying to do the right things and I'm trying to rely on you but u wonder if your there. I wonder if you hear me. I wonder if you've turned your back on me. He's the breath I breathe. I've never had much in life. I don't ask for much. I'm easy to please. Yet I must be doing something wrong. Why don't you hear my cries. Why don't you see the tears I've shed. I've read your word on love and worked on patience and jealousy. I've tried to do everything right so that you would bless me. I don't want anyone else. I just want him. But he doesn't want me. He sends mixed messages. Sometimes I think we are headed in the right direction and then tragedy again. God I'm really needing help. I don't want to go on. I wish you would just take me HOME!!!I don't want to be here anymore!!!!

by KleeP

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You can be annoyed if you want. This is my prayer. If you knew true love you would understand. I love my God with all my heart and soul. My friend is NOT my God. There is only 1 God- and I know He understands my pain!! I'm crying out to the Lord and not using this site to boo hoo. My pain is real. And my love is true. I cannot believe you just said that to someone who is so down and so hurt.

KleeP | on Apr 30, 2011

Hey just read ur txt , i dont know the pain u feel cause eachone feels a unique way , but i have suffer alot in my life my. Mom kick me out when i was 17 , had no place to go , and only i knew the pain i felt , so today after 11 years and alot experiences in life i can tell u that Jesus never did and will never turn his back on u , he said that if a mom forgog about her child , he wouldnt , and he didint he took care of me , today im married , i came to God, i forgive my mom , and love her very much, but one thing i learn in life is like a train , and then u have 2 drivers , God or us , the problem is that knows the track and he makes sure we get there ( happiness) but when we decide to drive we only drive in the wrong direction ( pain) so my advice for u ? Let God drive the train of ur life ...

thiago | on Apr 30, 2011

If he is the guy for u God will lead him to u , cause dont want to see u cry hes ur father, he got the best , ur his princess , u worth his blood , ill be praying for u ,God bless

thiago | on Apr 30, 2011

Sorry not feeling much like a princess. I've lost hope.

KleeP | on Apr 30, 2011

I was in a situation like this and I was hurt. I told him I was going to start dating others, and it scared him. We then moved our friendship to the next level and two months later it went downhill. It wasn't God's will at the time, we didn't speak for two weeks. In this time I cried out and during this time God was speaking to him. We are now happily together. If it's Gods will then it shall be. Leave it n Gods hand and just keep praying but in the meantime keep space between the both of you. If it hurts you to see him with others then you should stay away. God has the perfect man for you and in time he will come wether it's this guy or another. Keep your faith going and keep praying.

Anonymous | on Apr 30, 2011

I will keep yOu in my prayers...

JanetMel | on Apr 30, 2011

Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. I've pretty much hit rock bottom. The hardest thing I've ever done in life is fall in love with my best friend. We talk at least twice a day. How do you distance yourself from your best friend. I can't not answer his calls or see him. But I realize he doesn't appreciate me and takes me for granted - though he denies it. I just don't understand why I am going through this. I feel like the Lord is against me and has turned his back. Maybe I deserve this. Maybe it's a punishment for my sins.

KleeP | on Apr 30, 2011

When u accepted Christ all your sins were forgiven.

JMel | on May 01, 2011

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