Lord, you gave me a nice family, you gave me a nice house to live in, I even got my driving licence, you gave me the perfect-match girlfriend, enough money, a nice and fun job at my father.. And still. I'm really happy with all this, but it feels like I'm not deserving it.. Sometimes I sin so much against you, I dont even pray so much.. While I know that when I start praying I turn happier & more relaxed. Please help me being there for You, I want my life to spin around You instead of me.. I love you, I miss how you felt so close to me in South Africa.. I eant to be your smart & strong soldier lord, I really want to serve you forever and ever, I love you so much but I need to realize that more often.. Let me be one of your instruments, and please Lord, let my good friend, where I'm also very gratefull for, believe in you, I feel like hes floating away from you, I guess together with me. I love you, and I wish everyone around me did.. Everyone is so beautiful.. Love, one of your sons. Let the Spirit flow trough me and my friends.