Sebastian, put your trust in the Lord. He knows you're suffering and he suffers with you. Please don't end your life, things get better. I pray that God blesses you greatly and showers you with love.

The lord has your back buddy and just know its not worth it stay strong

Don't give into despair. Don't give up on yourself. The Lord won't. You belong to him. He loves you with such a tremendous amount of love that your name is written on his heart.
I consecrate you to the Sacred Heart of Jesus. May the blood of Jesus protect you, strength you, and shield you from all evil.
There is no other like you & there there never will be. You are very special to our Heavenly Father. You are the apple of his eye.
Trust, know, & believe he is all these things.
He always has your best interest in mind.
He is always with you. More so in the dark, lonley, & depressing times of your life.
Jesus, I trust in you!