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Heartbroken... I always catch myself asking to see his servants and not the mastor. I get so close to people I'm totally oblivious to what God is doing and once I get close to those people they leave, or atleast I think they do. Maybe it's just me with trust issues. Lord I need you, I used to be so close to you, I don't understand this.. Everynight that I lay in bed, I could almost just reach out an touch you, I could feel your presence so near to me papa. Always being the only youth at the altar crying and falling more deeply in love with you in worship. I felt like i was drowning in an ocean, that touch you have that brought me to my knees everytime. But now I feel so blinded. I've tried everything to get back. Being 16 is hard. Very hard especially with school and all the worldly things and people there. I thought I had it, everyone called me different, said I had a glow. I just didn't care because nothing else mattered but you Jesus and then people came in and knocked me on my face, I thought they were dear friends, but friends wouldn't do that, instead of trying to increase her faith, it lowered mine. Father I feel so distant.. I keep asking you to take these people out but it's not happening, I mean it's obvious they need to be here then but why if I keep falling? It's not fair. I want to be able to keep them strong If they need you but all they want to do is compromise no matter what anyone keeps telling them. The people at church, even leaders that know mistakes I've made for some ungodly reason go and tell little kids what kind of a horrible person I am. No one is perfect! They gossip, I thought they were supposed to be all about you God!! I'm not looking for perfect people, cus I'd fail at searching but I am looking for leaders to help build me up instead of cutt me down! Only one family have I met that I would almost mistake for you Jesus and you took them out of my life because of your will. God why do I deserve these trials. I know you've been in this very place but God I can't hold on much longer. People at every angle, people keep breaking my heart, I'm tired of looking toward people. I want you papa!! You!! I don't want to be another face in a broken world, I want to be the light in the darkness and help show the hope to the hopeless, out on the street corners, holdin the homeless, addicted, abused, abandoned and just loving on them. God you know my hearts desires, but why can't I come back to you. I've asked you to get rid of whatever it was holding me back and nothings happened. I have faith God now where's the miracle, father I need you near me. My hearts in my throat and all choked up with tears. Show me you and only you God. Please I'm begging you. I need you!'



by Megan

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Megan you are a princess, you hold a position in gods kingdom, you are a daughter, women of the most high God! Never doubt your place! As such you hold your head high, and if people talk, ask them who is with our sin to cast the first stone. Put your past to rest, you can't drive looking out the rearviw mirror, but you can learn from using the mirror for an aid, it's only a glance of where you are going- look stright ahead keep your eyes on the lord and the heavens will clear, the sun will shine gods favor will pour down on you!! Beleive! - remember church is a hospital for the sick, it renews our strength, but everyone that attends are sll in diffrent places in their healing. Don't put people on pedalstools, they will always come up short to your expectation. When you feel down, sing prasises, dance rejoyce the spirt of god will not let u stay in the put of dispear. God has huge plans for you follow ur dreams, you have gifts tsap into them, never listen if people say u can't or won't- with god you can and you will. Do princess keep your head high, help those you can, give the rest to god he'll finish what you cant. In my prayers - live hope a friend in Christ!

hope | on May 11, 2010

Ps - over look spelling, live = love the rest u can figure out:) just always know you have gods favor on you, if you have repented of your sins and claimed him as your most high God, god will take the bad that comes against you and turn it to good just you wait and see! Love you sister! Hope

hope | on May 11, 2010

You are so amazing! I love reading your posts! I'm pretty sure I'm following you so I can keep up lol :) but thank you so much, every word you just said meant so much to me and spoke to my heart so dearly. I've been longing for something, a message, and I feel what you just said is it. Thank you so much, thank God for you. Your so amazing! :) I love you sister! I sooo needed that. Thanks again!! I'd love to talk to you more sometime! :)

Megan | on May 11, 2010

That was the most passionate from the heart prayer I've ever read,my faith is sometimes weakend by the wants of this world ,I battle daily to feel fulfillment through the lord who I feel speaks to me sometimes,I struggle because I often feel so alone and without a companion in life here on earth its hard ,I pray to one day become one with the father in union with a wife the lord has blessed you with the ability of such deep prayers though I know as u said Jesus knows my heart ,the pain I feel is due to lacking in faith ,the lord is using me in ways unknown to me ,I pray often for his will n not mind to be done ,his lesson to me is patience which is so hard for me some times.God is love ,and love conquers all.I think we all have to continue to be as strong as we can in faith,trust and love the Lord Jesus.You are my strength when I am weak,you are the treasure that I seek ,you are my all in all! Jesus! Lamb of God ! Worthy is your name! Seeking you as a precious jewel ,lord to give up I,d be a fool ,you are my all in all! Praise God ,Jesus loves us !

bri,lovengod | on May 11, 2010

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