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I still don't feel any different! I tried talking to God! Either I'm so far gone and he ain't realized one of his was missing, or this hell is real! I'm so tired! Wanna die but to much a coward to do it,where it would be for sure! Pills what a joke! No matter how many times I shoulda overdose, the man won't let go! I'm begging him too kill me or just let me die! I'm no good for the kinda work he do!what am I being here for?I don't know what is on the other side but it got to beat this miserable behind mess! I hate living, before I had a family, my babies now I have nothing to live for! For those that's gonna say that's minor ull get through it! U didn't know my kids! They could make u forget what a bad day was! It was because of them kids I found God! Begging him to let my child live! Talking about God makes me angry! I don't want pity!I'm just tired of this same repeat darn life! Who the hell keep pushing the rewind button? Cause that's the butt I want! All them times I supposed to died, there you go Jesus standing in the way! Move dude, you won't tell me why u got me here! Tell me something or move! I'm tired of walking around already feeling dead! There's nothing left in me,u want me to love how can I when the people I love,I hate? I don't care nomore! U or the devil have nothing more u can take from me! Is y'all really fighting over some ol rusty, scared the hell up,black soul? I ain't even worth fightin over! So why don't you boi's put up ur gear and protect someone who deserve it! Like never mind me watch over them kids I had since u say they urs anyway! U can't do nothing for me but u can still reach them! I hate they lying daddy but small favor, keep him well, I made u a lot of promises ,Jesus I u was me and I was u ud been without a tongue a hip,some toes,hell Jesus ida been took u out! Like stiff out! I thought u said something like I have a free will? Dammit I'm tired, why are u tryna convince me,it's better for me to be here! U want me to do ur biz,but u say screw the hurt,the humiliating, the empty soul of mine! And smile cause Jesus love u,right that's what u expect me to say? Not! How can I tell anybody bout this magnificent God, there's nothing in my life to support that! Please dude! Show me a miracle then u couldn't shut me up! Don't poor me either, I lived right and u still turned ur back! Now I just don't care! I often asked why u allowed me in this jacked up world to start with!



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