Shiloh ( James ),
Please stop thinking that way. A lot of young people think that way, I did when I was about your age. I grew up in foster care; then he hospital; then back into foster care; then back into the hospital; then finally into a grouphome. I've had people make fun of me; hit me a lot; from childhood to adulthood. I felt the same way. As a young person sometimes life can be hard. I'd rather you try Jesus PLEASE. God don't want anything to happen to you because as you get older God wants you to do some work for Him. You express yourself very well as to the way your feeling. When your talking to God let Him know how you feel and how you would like it to be as long as God is in it. Then patiently wait for good things to happen. There are things that may seem to never going to happen; trust in God and it will. I'm still still going through crazy things as an aldult but with Jesus by my side I don't worry too much. I want the best for you. JESUS WANTS EVEN BETTER FOR YOU. PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP. JESUS LOVES YOU.
By the way: ( I'm 55 and loves The Lord ).