Father God I come before you humbly knowing I'm not strong enough on my own to change what need be changed in my life.
I want to serve you unhindered with my whole heart. Since my divorce 2 yrs ago You know that I've been going through quite a lot. Trying to stay re focused on you after some backsliding. After my deliverance counseling a few months ago I knew I'd be tested on everything that was overcome. I have with Your help beaten many of my past strongholds but some remain that haunt me.
One as you know I've struggled with for 16 yrs. The Smoking. I know this will not keep me from heaven but its robbing me of abundant life and at only 30 yrs old I feel its weight. I have quit many times for short periods and continue to go back. I know that if I do not knock this for good soon it may be my demise.
I know You've already warned me of this in my spirit and I want so desperately to be free of it. The battle is too much to bear and I need a double portion of Your strength. I want to please You and be able to be healthy and active should it be in your will for me to marry again and have children which You know is a desire of my heart.
You have delivered me from so much already and have kept me from premature death many times. This is the last physical thing that holds sway. As You know Father I have gotten back on the patch which works well for me but for some reason this time its so hard to stay focused and it seemes every evening I crack and have a smoke when I take it off.
Father please reveal to me if I'm tieing Your hands somehow and if I have a heart issue that need be dealt with. I want to be free of this once and for all. And I also ask for Your direction as to which step to take next in my life. I can go any direction now or do anything You will Father. I'm chained to nothing and am a single man with a passion for you and a very light load in life at this time other than a heavy heart and desperation to know what to do now.
Thank You Father God for Your wisdom and guidance and for the ultimate sacrifice of Your son Jesus. In His name I pray and lift this up before You. Your son and servant Matthew Scott. Amen.