Don't give up. Nothing is immpossible. You can find happiness in friends and family. The war between Heaven and Hell is part of everyone's life, even yours. I know it doesn't make sense, but that is what faith is about. Believing in God is not just a way to get what we want, it is a way of life. I find peace in foloowing the will of God. I was like you before, confused, living my way. I felt I had no way out. I felt I had no friends, my family was against me. I reached a breaking point, I had nothing left. It was a dark time in my life, yet a few people showed me love and compassion. I learned of God, and His ways. He has changed my life, I know He is there in yours, don't give up. I will not give up or abandon you. I offer friendship, and advice, not sermons. I will pray you find answers and peace.

Eddie,
Its true you didn't have a choice of being born on this planet or having the family you may or may not have had, but the decisions that you make with your life are all your own. We are all born with a purpose and God wouldn't put more on you than you couldn't bear. Yes at times it may seem that all hope is lost when we struggle through life and we want to give up; don't do it you know that you are greater than the battles you are fighting. You have the beautiful gift of choice to improve your circumstances. I'm not saying that it will be easy because its not going to be. We suffer to learn compassion and we go through trials to give us strength of the body and mind. Step out on faith and believe in the good that's coming to you ;even though you may not see it change and }ods blessings are right around the corner. I've been where you have been so I know how you feel. Don't give up hope brother. Hold your head up high keep praying and keep the faith.

You are not alone because you have made the choice to allow the lord in. You are praying. And in your prayer you let go and gave it up to him. Now open your heart and mind and begin to recognize that every breath and step you take is a blessing, even a miss step. Be open to all and it will become clearer to you. My prayer for you this day. You are not alone.