The pain you must be enduring and the trust issues you face every minute of the day your not with him. I pray god takes the hurt and pain away that he lifts u up above sll that you have endured and brings you out of your pit, into the light as a warrior emerges triumphit out of a battle. I pray god will use your pain to ease others pain who find themselfs in simmular situations and that your mans eyes are open to all your buetiful traits.
The lord says if you have strenghth of the mustured seed you can say to this mulberry tree be pulled up by the roots and be planted in the sea and it would obey you.

Hang on to your Man by acts of kindness, words of
love, obedience in faith, that u can restore trust in him, treat him as your king, let his afflictions battle within until your marriage is restored. The walk you face well be hard, human nature to lash back and stew over past mistakes, to uuse guilt as a weapon - but if you want this marriage to work, ur going to have to change tactics. Get some Christian marriage books, a friend with a deep understanding of gods word and a willingness to change your heart and how you respond to your man. You are fighting a battle, have to have the right weapons to win.

Lord you can do anything, we are so not able to make someone change, but lord you are you can lift binders off her husbands eyes, you can restore this marriage, lord I lift her up to you to prepare her for the battle to win her man back and to make her marriage stronger then everbefore. In Jesus name amen