Prayer Request


Dear God,

It seems as if I have screwed my whole life up. I can never do anything right and the things I would really like to have in life are way beyond my reach. I know you have been with me in my life. You know I have almost always tried to do what is right. I am human and I am definately not perfect but I sure try very hard to be what you want me to be. I really do not know why I am here in this world. I do not know why you do not just take me up to heaven. Maybe then I can find my place. So many times I do not feel like I belong here. So many times I feel like a stranger to everyone around me including myself.

Sometimes I feel so lost and I don't understand why. There is so much hurt in my heart. So much pain from the ones I love so deeply. I try to put it behind me and try to move forward and not look back but my mind does not seem to want me to do that as it sometimes goes to the people who have hurt me when I least expect it to. How can so much hurt live in a heart and the heart not break to the point that it doesn't work anymore? Your word has said that you would never give more that a person can bear. I do not feel as if I can bear much more pain of the heart. It seems as if almost everyone is against me for not being perfect. I have lost my trust in people. I have lost something inside of me and I don't know what it is or how to fix it.

I do not understand the why's of so much. I want to live for you, but when I get close I feel as if you do not want me so close. I want my family to love me for who I am but that is not to be, for they want me to be perfect in every way. I would love to have a decent home to live in that I am not ashamed if someone comes by.. I would love for my kids to do well in their lives. I would love to be GOOD at something other than screwing up. I have a good heart. I have the want to do what is right. I hope that I have honor, respect and loyality for all people.

I always feel like I am on the outside looking in, even with you. I don't know why. It just seems to me that I do not fit in anywhere. I am a puzzle missing so many pieces that I do not think I will ever be the whole thing and I don't know where the missing pieces are.

Please do not get me wrong. I am so very grateful for what I do have. I cherish Kenneth and Josh. I cherish the fact that I have a roof over my head, food to eat and the fact that I am warm in the winter and cool in the summer. That I have a car to drive and this computer. That I have you in my heart.

But how am I suppose to do any good for you when all I seem to touch gets so messed up? How can I be good at anything when it seems that I fail at nearly everything?

I know that you do not make mistakes yet in my heart I feel as if with me you have made a grave error and there is nothing I can do to fix it.



by Callista

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Comments on this Prayer

My friend, the love of God and Jesus is like no other love.

God makes NO mistakes. I felt like how you feel about a year ago. Lots of reading of His word, praying, fasting, meditation and talking to Jesus has gotten me through it. The Lord has removed many from my life and I've found that it was for my growth with my relationship with the Lord.

Include Jesus in all aspects of your life. Believe, pray, trust and have faith in Him and His word and you will feel at peace and discover His will.

God bless you my friend! You have purpose. :)

Anonymous | on Mar 23, 2012

I too feel this way ,on the outside looking in ,I will pray for you,god bless.

johnnyo | on Mar 23, 2012

Thank you both.

Anonymous | on Mar 23, 2012

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