Please help me to stop being so angry. Please help me to stop feeling hatred towards my husband.
Please help me to get my life back. My spirit. I feel so empty and beaten. Why is it so hard to blame the drugs and not my husband? Why can't I forgive as you do? Why do I need so badly for him to feel the pain he has caused everyone? Why does he get to be numb? How can a drug destroy so much and yet he seems so oblivious to it? It's as if the world and everyone else is the problem not him. How do I keep loving him when I wish I could stop.
Why should my children suffer?
I'm so angry Lord I just want it all to stop. I pray you heal him. I pray you break him from the chains and power of addiction. But I also pray that you fill my heart with compassion, grace, and forgiveness. I know that you can move mountains and I pray that you will move this mountain Lord because I can no longer climb it.
Thank you for your faithfulness,
In Jesus name Amen