I know the feeling when everything feels gray. Its a tough place to be and i prayed really hard that the Lord will show you a way out of this wilderness you are in. The first step to freeing yourself, is to admit that God loves and cares for you more than anything in this world. If you will start to seek Him out with all your heart....you will begin to see changes happening all around you. Study daily Gods word and confess it over your life and i promise you will see Gods favor in your life like never before.

God has given us the power to change our reality and destiny. You have to fix your thoughts on the things that are positive and things you want. If I send you a link to a video, would you watch it?

Yes He will help you, because He loves you. Here are some words from the Lord who loves you, "And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.' "(Acts 2:21 NIV). "If you declare with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. "(Romans 10:9 NIV).
There are demons that would love to keep you from victory, but you don't have to let them.
"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. (Ephesians 6:12 NIV)".
But you are given authority over those things, if your life is surrendered in repentance to Jesus Christ. "I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. (Luke 10:19 NIV)".
The name of Jesus is powerful. Call upon Him. He will answer you. Lord, in Jesus' name, I lift up Chilliebeanie79, and ask You to lift this lamb out of this pit. Bind Satan, and bring peace to this person as they trust in You in total surrender. Amen

@ Jp, yes, I would watch it. I need all the help I can get right now. Please email it to [email hidden from spammers]. Thank u.