Please Lord take these suicidal thoughts from me....

Yes Father, please remove all thoughts of suicide.

I sympathize with your situation. HOWEVER, this IS NOT a reason to commit suicide.

The Bible say NIV) John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. Also,
(NIV) 1 Peter 5:8 Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

Thoughts of suicide to solve a problem are lies from the pit of Hell. Please don't ever think suicide which is a PERMANENT Solution is an answer to a temporary problem in the scope of your whole life.

Im just so tired...where is the relief? I cant even cry anymore...im so tired

I know how you feel to be the person that always I'd there for everyone when they need something, but when it is the other way around they don't offer much comfort.

It is in those times that I learn to depend on the Lord even more which is really what He wants us to do. God is there always. His Word says He will never leave us, forsake us, abandon us, give up on us, or loosen His grip on us if we are His child. Others may, but never God.

Also, NOTHING can ever separate us from His love. Trust that He is there, Find some scriptures that speak to your heart and memorize them. Say them to yourself until they penetrate your heart.

Realize too that the devil uses our mind to plant doubts so do not believe anything unless it lines up with what the Bible says.

As believers we will suffer. Think about how Jesus suffered for our sakes. However, the Bible says,
NIV) James 1:2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds,

(NIV) James 1:3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

(NIV) James 1:4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Also, (NIV) 1 Peter 1:6 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials.

(NIV) 1 Peter 1:7 These have come so that your faith--of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire--may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

(NIV) 1 Peter 1:8 Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy,

(NIV) 1 Peter 1:9 for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.

Be strong. Things are always changing. If you can find one or two people that you know will be totally for you you are blessed. Continue to help others and be there for them and God will richly bless you. Take care. Linda