Prayer Request


I need prayers badly this is my mindset.. I'm not sure why I am thinking about my own death but right now I feel so alone. When I die I don't want people to say funeral arrangements id rather they say going away party. My coffin needs to be chrome or maybe silver with chrome handles or visa versa. The lining should be pink. There should be no flowers I hate flowers they stink like pee. Instead of flowers people can donate money to my children. I don't want an open coffin I don't like people staring at me now I don't want them staring at me when I'm dead. The music to be played will be hank williams I'm so lonesome I could cry, patsy cline walking after midnight, lil wayne how to love, bronco un puño de tierra, yolanda del rio la hija de nadie, color purples speak to me Lord. Those songs say a lot about me. If my sister throws a fit acting like we were best friends and makes a scene someone needs to slap her and make her leave I'm so tired of her drama queen antics. my mom too if she even tries someone needs to remind her of how I never text or call her and then tell her its because of all the hurt she has caused me. If my dad happens to show up ask him why the **** he's there or maybe my husband could be all nice to him and say its so nice you finally made good on your promise to visit my wife too bad she had to die for you to do it. If I was to tell my dad one thing on that day id say dad the one thing that will stick to me always was at my younger sisters funeral where you came in very late all dressed up stinking to high heaven of cologne looking not sad maybe even happen while my sisters mom was crying all distraught. At my funeral neither my dad nor my mom will truly care. They don't even know me. I want to be cremated if my kids and husband would like a vile of ashes for comfort so be it but no one else. My husband and kids are the only ones who know me and they are here thru this illness and thru the depression. The rest of my ashes I want to be thrown In a live volcano because lava is beautiful. It really don't matter because my soul will finally be happy and pain free in Gods house.



by Anonymous

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May Godbless you. And keep talking to Him.

Thank You | on Sep 18, 2011

Hi I am concerned about u. Pray 4 u, and do u think u need some other help, like talking 2 ur friends, husband, parents, visiting a psychiatrist, and doing some sports. And god will always love u, He will not give u tests u can't get over!

Anonymous | on Sep 18, 2011

please know I understand what it feels like to be alone, even when there are others around. You are not alone. I am sorry that you are in such pain. I'm praying for you.

Anonymous | on Sep 18, 2011

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