Prayer Request


Dear God,

I wish I could say something grand and theatrical to make all of this go away.

I am in the HARDEST crossroads of my life. I WANT to please You, God. To be able to stand under the sun, beam up at the sky, and know You don't find me displeasing. That I lead a fulfilling, righteous, non-addicted, godly life. Where my faith is rock solid and love and praise for You outpours from my heart. Where I never doubt and I have a place in the church. And... I live a TRUE, CHRISTIAN life, none of this "Chrislamic" blasphemy.

That's the road I know and want to take.

But there's another road that is taking every fiber of my being not to go down. And in certain aspects, I'm failing MISERABLY in my efforts to fight my way away from that road. A road filled with hot naked women with sumptuous nipples and ridiculously gorgeous skin and bellybuttons. A road of ****, underwater sex, breathholding, and drownings. A road of lies and falsehoods where I can falsely make myself appear loved and popular even though I'm not that at all.

A road that, basically, strokes my flesh and ego... but hurts my soul, heart, morality, dignity, and most of all.... You, God. You and any chance of carrying a fulfilling, real, powerful, pleasing, and wonderful relationship with You.

For the past 8 days I have not technically masturbated- but I have failed MISERABLY in all other areas, whether sexual or not. And it's getting harder and HARDER not to masturbate. My body is CRYING out for release. I'm so horny, God... and I feel like my efforts to show You I can live righteously washed away days ago.

Even though I haven't "technically" masturbated, I've looked at SO MUCH ****, underwater, bellybutton, and hetero/**** stuff that I've leaked a ton. I might as well have masturbated. Hentai stuff too.

I used the falsehoods of Holly, Anna, and Adam on facebook to like my stuff, comment on my stuff, tag my stuff, and send messages I shouldn't have.

I've had doubts, thoughts, and feelings I shouldn't have.

And to be honest? I'm not 100% sure why I didn't give in and masturbate. I think it's because I'm secretly hoping You'll find favor with me because, in the face of such over-powering, **** odds... I resisted the biggest urge of all. Just so You'd find favor with me.

But how can You? I've done so many unrighteous things I don't think it matters that I "technically" didn't masturbate. I've failed miserably... and I'm sorry.

I apologize and I repent.

But I'm also worried. I feel like if I was saved I would NEVER be tempted. Resisting the flesh would be 100% easy, and **** and my freaky fetishes wouldn't have a hold on me. Sin still has a hold over me, along with demon strongholds and mind-binders.

Jesus... I want You in my life. I think about You EVERY DAY, and I've become considerably more conscious of all my wrong-doings. When I mess up I feel such conviction. I want to repent and clear the airwaves.

But Jesus... I want You apart of my EVERY DAY life. When an opportunity arises, I want You involved. When I'm weak I want You to empower me and my will. When I sin I want You to forgive me. When I pray I pray to see God's power working in my life.

Jesus, I believe in You. I believe You went to that cross, died... and rose again, so that I may live.

Come into my heart, Jesus. I accept Your gift of Eternal Life. As You move in, wash away the darkness, resentment, guilt, sin, demons, and ALL unpure things in my heart, soul, mind, spirit, and body.

Take this black-spattered wretch... Wash him in Your blood... and let him come out pure. Please forgive me and set me free of ALL my conscious and unconscious sins and blasphemies.

And create in me a new spirit. A new hunger. A new drive. A pure heart and mind.

Jesus... transform me. Transform me and my life. Help me to live righteously, conquer my addictions, and mold me into the man You called me into being to be, Heavenly Father.

Let sin hold NO MORE sway and hold anymore.

Be my Savior, Lord Jesus. I love You.

Thank You. Help me to always give back to You. Let God's power REIGN in my life.

Thank You, Jesus. In Jesus's Name I pray...

Amen.



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Despite whether you see it or not, you are making a change. You didn't give in to what you normally do & you are starting to feel more guilty now than before so God is working on you. It won't happen over night, but continue to pray. Maybe when you have the urge, you can find something else to keep you busy. If you have anything that you are able to throw away with those kinds of things in them, throw them away. When you feel the urge, start quoting scripture. I promise you will see a difference. You will feel less inclined to do those things. Strengthen the spirit self so that your spirit self will overpower your man self. God bless & I will continue to pray for you.

DivineDiva4God | on Jun 19, 2011

you've GOT to release..!
you've teased yourself, & it's not healthy..!!!
Are you a Libra..?

777 | on Jun 22, 2012

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