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I'm afraid I'm going to kill myself. I want to die. I'm sick of being alive. I'm in love with Brian Hoffman, but he hates me. I'll never see him again, and if I did he'd ignore me. I'm the idiot who slept with him because I was so anxious for him. I love him like I've never loved any other human being. I want my life to be over now that I know he will never be mine. I know nothing is impossible for God, but at 35 I'm out of time already. God knows I messed up this last, best, and only chance He gave me to give Brian Hoffman a happy family. It's almost impossible for me to get through the day as it is. Thou shalt not tempt the Lord thy God, so I can't keep asking, praying, and begging Him for Brian. I can't keep bothering God about my living death. My only hope is death. Please. I can't live with this pain.



by joe

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Lift your pain to Jesus.. let him have your burden and He will give you peace.

Anonymous | on Jun 18, 2011

God answers prayers but u have to serve him n turn from sin. If u love God u must pick up ur bible n learn how he want u to serve him n b thankful for what u have.

Anonymous | on Jun 18, 2011

Joe. GOD is the only one you cannot live without. The ONLY one. Know the difference. Pray instead that GOD revels HIS purpose for you. Not your own conceived purpose.

Anonymous | on Jun 18, 2011

God wants me to be an artist. It's a gift He's given me, but I don't want it if it means I can't have what my blood is screaming for. Why would God answer my prayers to take this pain away with a resounding No! I think He thinks it will make me a better artist bringing me fame and fortune, but I never wanted fame and fortune. I just want to be a wife and mother. Now that Brian is gone, I know that will never happen for me. I don't want just any husband or baby, but I want him to be my husband; I want his baby. I keep praying that God takes him from my soul, heart, mind, and memory. It's been almost a year since I last saw him and God still hasn't granted me mercy from him. I'm in love with him. God, please help me! I'm in love with him.

joe | on Jun 20, 2011

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