Prayer Request


God... I say this a lot: that I want to change. That I want to be free of my ultimate sin... masturbation. My second ultimate sin is living in falsehood- pretending to be who I am not. I want to change. I pray to change. ...But more often than not, I end up falling flat on my face because I keep trying to stop all on my own. I don't pray enough for You to heal me. I feel like I have to prove to You I can stop before You should step in and help me. But I'm weak... I can't stop. I'm addicted. I can't do this alone.

I'm not perfect, God. A lot of the time I feel so screwed up that I keep sinning, feeling it's my only alternative because I feel You're angry with me. I get this cynical idea of, "Welp, God's already mad at me so I'm hopeless, may as well keep sinning!" It's a horrible attitude.. and I'm sorry.

The only way to change... is Jesus. Now, You know I struggle with faith and belief. I feel like belief is a physical feeling I must feel in my heart... otherwise I'm not believing. But Jesus says faith no bigger than a mustard seed is more than enough.

So here goes...

Jesus... You know me, but I barely know you. I want that to change. I... am a WRETCHED sinner. I have masturbated thousands upon THOUSANDS of times. I have a bellybutton/breast/underwater fetish that fuels my addiction to masturbation and that subsequently can lead to **** too.

I have hurt people, and I'm EXTREMELY LONELY. So much so I pretend to be over a dozen or so false people on facebook... just to have people to talk to. In the hopes that all those "people" will entice others to speak to me.

It doesn't.

I tell lies, tall stories, I'm dangerously insecure, and I get plagued by doubt and violent thoughts a lot.

I am a mess. Yet... something in my heart won't let go of you, Jesus. I dream about living a life with FULL, ROCK-SOLID faith in You. Where I have a well-placed position in church employing my artistic talents for You. Where I have many friends... and the one girl, the one beautiful, talented girl provided by You... whose perfect for me.

Where I lead a fulfilling life FREE OF ADDICTION... And my mom is happy and I make You happy, God.

I'm wise enough to know this all may not happen until later in Eternity... and I want to be there with You and everyone for it!

So Jesus Christ... will You please come into my heart? Make me yours. I surrender my life to the Lord.

You died on the cross... for me. For everyone. And rose again. I know it.

Save me. From myself. And transform me into everything you ever wanted me to be.

I'm sorry, God. I wish I could cry. I'm sorry for every stupid sin. Free me from all unrighteousness. I accept the gift of eternal life. Make my life your own.

And help me change, grow, and experience the radical power and change only my Lord Jesus can provide.

In Jesus's Name I pray and cry out... Amen.



by Anonymous

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God loves you despite your sin. That's why He send His only Son Jesus to die for our sins. But we must also be willing to cooperate with God and not take back the reigns when we ask Him to take control. Have you considered professional counseling for your addictions? You are in my prayers brother.

Anonymous | on May 18, 2011

It takes a lot of courage to admit you have a problem. You also have a lot of courage for turning to Jesus. Look inside your soul and pray deeply for your sins. The enemy's going to continue to tempt you. Don't get tempted by the flesh but live in a supernatural. Our Lord Jesus Christ and Savior is forgiving. Reach out to him and you not be stranded. May God bless you and I pray that you have a life change that you'll never be tempted again

Alex | on May 18, 2011

Psalm 18:28
You, O LORD, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light.

Alex | on May 18, 2011

Acts 3:19 "lord help me to turn from sin onto you so that I may be cleanse from it". Remember there is nothing that you can ever do tyhat make the lord love you less. I pray god may recondition your life to his perfect will.

Edwin[Christian.In.Action] | on May 18, 2011

Psalm 23 read this everyday
the Lord is my shephard i shall not want read the book of jerimaih u would understand that God knows the plans he has for yo life read psalms for encouragement standing on the promises of God ephesians to understand and know we have tools and power and authority over the wills of saten if he can deliver me from masterbation he can do the same for u u have to make a commitment to God and believe in God and u that u can carry out the mission God gave to u u can do this throu Gods holyspirit fret not God is with u God bless u son man of the living God

Prophetess | on May 18, 2011

I have been in your cry shoes and let me first say my heart goes out to you for having to courage to admit the truth. That's is amazing! The first step to healing is to admit and face the sickness. I am on the upward pace of freedom from this bondage and the only way I knew how to move on was to keep telling myself I am not a bad person I am just sick in spirit and the ultimate physician (God) is the only person that can heal me. I cannot fix my self or get well on my own. This does not make you any less of a person either, just know it's just a spiritual sickness and battle that God alone ( and WILL) fight for yOu as long as you place your life as total surrender. This is the next step in which you have to change your thinking and drown yourself in God. From the music to the movies even ppl around us. Then and only then does that give a foundation arm grounds for change. I pray for you dear Brother in Christ. Never forget you are not alone in these struggles. We must lift one another up in prayer, seeking God with all our hearts. May God bless you. Right now in tue Name of Jesus Christ, healer of evrery infirmity of both body and soul I lift this dear Brother to you. Give him stength and power and victory in your name! Amen!'

hisaloneforever1965 | on May 18, 2011

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