Prayer Request


Lord I pray to seek You. I pray for energy. I pray to care about anything. I pray to Love. I pray to pray. I pray to know you more. I pray to seek you more, to know you more. I pray to stop betraying you day in day out. I pray against: my pride, my hate, my depression, my distrust for all people and all things, my hate for having a Gay mother who left me and a brother and sister behind at age 12, my ****, my severe lack of discipline, my apathy, my indifference, my self mutilation, my sexual desires, my sexual ruin, my sexual promiscuity, my loss of possible intimacy with another person, ruining my friend/ ex-friend's sanity by threatening suicide, drinking too much, seeking drugs, seeking "highs" of any form, my gluttony, my recitavism, my dishonest and misleading talk, my fantacy for relationships, my hate for the absolute Hell of giving my heart to a few specific girls-- and the ongoing endless agony that it is even years later now--it truly Burns like an inexplicable fire, my unsettled and disspondant feelings for never attaining my temporal desires! Lord, I want the life that is connected to you. If I must go through hell on earth to know you more, then bring the rain father, and help me walk! I don't long for a hard life, but father I must have you! I must know you more! You are all I NEED. The guilt and shame I feel for having the knowledge of you and FAILING so blatantly feels like I've spit in your face and lost You completely. I'm so broken for you ABBA! God please help me to hear you speak! Help me hear you. God I need you. I feel as if I cant trust anybody. I feel as if I'm connected to nobody or anything. I can't honestly say there's not a person that I can TRUST with my heart. I don't believe I have any friends to speak of because without trust there is no relationship. I find this so strange because I am held in high esteem by my peers and higher-ups. They say, "wow, you always win" "you're amazing" "you really have your crap together" "you're so Nice"...... God help me to zero in on my walk with you. Forgive me, for I have sinned greatly. Help me walk the narrow path home. Hold my hand tight ABBA, and guide me. AMEN



by Caz

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I really admire your attitude and honesty. Just remember that no matter what you've said, what you've thought, or what you've done, it can all be erased and God can purify you again. You are God's most precious creation. He made you and you are so special to him! He is with you ALWAYS! never forget that! If you need to talk I am willing to listen. I will be praying for you! Stay strong and keep your eyes on Jesus!

God Girl | on Mar 10, 2011

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