Hi Mitsukai, the fact that you asked God to save you, says that you are already saved. So you don't have to take matters into your own hands. I will pray for you.

Praying for you please know this would be a permanent act for a temporary situation

God hears your prayers don't take matters into your own hand. Wait on Him to keep His promises. He said in His word I will never leave you nor forsake you. Your situation didn't form over night so allow God a chance to work a miracle for you. While you wait keep praying and reading the word of God. Find a bible study a prayer partner. Watch God at work just get in His will by obeying and submitting to His word. If you can't understand it right now get a kids/teens bible I still grab one here and there it is broken down for you to understand better. God Bless hang in there

Christ is the light that will brighten your life. Always know that although it seems you are alone in this world you are not! Christ will walk with you If you give him a chance. Continue to pray and have patience. You are in my prayers.