Hey Bella thanks for concern :) i am very sad and unhappy and thrown away from this world, i just want to die , becuz i dont see any light out there in the future to make me happy, my problems are with family , i mean i have relationship problems, i never met the right guy and the one who is serious and wants marriege, who wanted marruege i didnt want it with them, i just been hurt too many times in my life and my relationships the hell that i been through, would cause problems in my own life, i would feel down, sad, anxious and that would create problems in my family , they didnt know i talk to any of the guys, because if i told them and later on nothing worked out they would blame on me, and tell me stuff like stop talking to any guys, would take away everything from me and by the way i am 24... So thats the reason i didnt want to be a failure in front of them.. So anyway now my problem is with them, no more guys around, its been two months i broke up , but it still hurts me, cuz i want him back, but he never loved me.. We been together for five months.. The only thing now it kills me seeing no normal communication with my family.. There is hate in everyone of us... Towards each other .. Why? Becuz i sometimes go out and i dont stay late and i dont go to clubs, but still they talk and big talk, it makes me go crazy and obviously i start talking back like stop i am 24 , stop telling me what to do, and that goes on for sooo long my dad stops talking to me like a child holding grudge against me becuz i go out i mean its sad .. Its been three weeks i dont talk to any of them, i am haveing anxiety peoblems, i am in my room all the time, hardly eat, i am going through hell.., i want god to help me.. Either i die or live normal life otherwise cant live this anymore hun sorry to comment this long on your prayer!! I pray for you and your family and i hope ur mom gets hired i pray for that cuz nowdays employment is a huge problem i am unemployed myself too i need to get hired too but nobody called yet:(((

I'm so glad you wrote back! Everything your saying is exactly how my life used to ne it makes me want to cry. Its crazy. I went through the same with guys. I know how it feels to not be loved.and me and my family used to fight all the time.my mom would yell and cuss at me and my sisters. God is the answer to all your going through..does your family believe in God? When my family saw the change in me because I started going to church and put God first.they started to change. I prayed for my mom everyday that God would soften her heart and it took time,but now were like best friends. You gotta be an example girl even when your fams difficult. You show them nothing but love and kindness. As far as guys I can tell u don't ever be sad because of a Guy! If u meet someone who treats u bad once u drop that Guy in an instance! There r good guys out there very few but u gotta pray to God for what u want there is nothing wrong with that,don't be afraid if I meet a nice Guy to give him a chance. Looks don't last (not saying that's what u want) just look at his heart. Pray for your future husband but u gotta put God first in your heart. I know what it feels like to want to die I used to have anxiety attacks too. U remind me so much of the old me. I will do what I can to be here for you.please don't give up. With God its going to get better that I can guarantee and promise. Though things r not going to be perfect I'm the happiest ive ever been. Its so worth it to know God don't give up k

You should listen to Joyce meyer on podcast or go on youtube.she is amazing and inspiring. do u read the Bible? I used to think it was boring sad to say,but its uplifting too! Surround yourself with positive things. I write sticky notes like my favorite Bible versus or encouraging words and stick them in my room :).

There are good men out there just like there are good women and mothers and fathers we all judge each other too much I pray you don't do anything bad because its family that gets hurt things get bad my life is not peachy and I do think the same sometimes

I love Jesus i believe in him but lately i feel like he doesnt see my pain, i know he has someone good and got betterthings for me but i am sick of te misery... My family believes in god too but it just seems to be a huge problem, i dont understand them and same goes for them we sropped loeving one another i mean how can this happen if there is god involved .. I pray for me and everyone out there to be happy and in peace.. Thx so much , i will go and listen to her an yes i go online i read psalms, and always in research of online jesus prayers and help .. I mean i just hope jesus can bring my family together And put good way of thinking in my parents thoughta which is impossible but i know he can change the impossible..!!! Please jesus put love and respecct in my families hearts towards me .. And forgive my sins and make me forgive and forget my own sins i have hard time forgiving my
Own sins to myself

Hey how are you doing?!