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Hello and thank you for caring.
I love God but right now I am very confused hurt and lonely. I don't understand anything anymore. I got married on my birthday this year April 26. My Beautiful God given bride and I left Indiana on May 4th for our new lives together in Texas.
On that day my dad called my cell told me to pull over and informed me that my brother was killed in a car wreck. As much as I love my family I decided to continue for Texas because Katie had serious things to take care of. I was in Texas with Katie for a couple of days and she told me that she had been Much in prayer and that I needed to fly back to Indiana for my family. On My 7th I flew back to Indiana I was Here for three weeks. I was informed on May 28th from my sister-in-law that Katie was found dead in her bed. She laid down on May 26th one month to the day of our marriage and never got up.
I dont really think its true but I feel like God said "Because your my son I Love you here is the answer to All your prayers I made her for you." one month later He took her away and said "psych motherf...er did you really think I care? Since everything happened I've cried to God for help, the pain wont go away or even let up really. Over this short period of Hell I've written my heart to God in poetry here's some

Grieve
My purpose seems lost my hope fades in a day. You answered my prayer then took her away.
I Know where she is and I Know whose I am. What I can't figure out is your Marvelous plan.
I pray that know know inside your heart. Where should I go oh Lord where do I start.
I Trust in your hand for thats where I lay. Mold me, and shape me fix me I pray.
In Jesus name

Grief
Father will you come rest your head upon my heart. Fill me with your presence and consume my every part.
Your peace is what I need your face I long to see. Captured by your Beauty overflow inside of me.
Burn away the grief become my every thought. My Katie lives in Heaven and you are all Ive got.
Fill again this empty spot that once was full of Hope. I'll never forget our time togather but will you help me cope.

Reaching Out to You
I wish I could say that all my dreams are true. I wish I could be faithful and prove my Love to you.
I wish I didn't do all the things I do.
Oh God I wish I could give my life to you.
Will you hold me and let me know?
Let me know that I am special.
Let me know that I am yours.
I wish I could be faitheful and prove my love true.
Oh God I wish I could give my life to you.
I'm drowning in my sin I'm reaching out to you...

Forever Alone...
This pain in my heart is out of control. What happens next I don't even know? Forever alone forever alone...

Would I could I should I... where?
My conscience runs wild I don't even care. Forever alone forever alone...

My anger at God and confusion inside. Tear me apart I just want to die.
Forever alone forever alone...

I don't understand how good God can be?
Katie is gone and I cannot see.
Forever alone forever alone...

My vision is dead carried far away.
Forever alone forever...

As I Cry
Jesus help me to know. I'm confused broken and lonely I have nowhere to go.
I call to your name my life falls apart. Only you know this pain inside my heart.
Numb my wounds please take them away. I know I'm dirty but you promised to stay.
I stood on your Word the Rock of my Life. The rock turned to sand then devoured my wife.
If I cant depend on you then what the Hell is the use. To walk around by faith as some kind of excuse.
If you cannot fail then why did she die? Did you bring me this far to laugh as I cry?
You knew I would break because you were my strength.
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by Anonymous

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I'm very sorry for you I feel your pain and under
stand your grief ipray you
Find solace and comfort

misson bend, texas | on Sep 19, 2010

Plz be strong, hold onto what you know about God, he does Love you...his ways are not our ways.I feel ur pain also. Praying for your peace & understanding

His Life 4 Me | on Sep 19, 2010

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